I Loved You

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I Loved You (an altered cover of I Love You by Avichyil)- this song is about looking back on romantic relationships in which you loved your ex partner at the time, but are now OVER THEM for good (and finally have found the closure that you were seeking).

Lyrics:

I never told you what I thought
I’d slip so much that I’d get caught
On how you’d occupy my mind

I was always hiding from myself
Emotions hurt and so I dealt
And I pushed them far behind

There were times when you’d look at me
Said my eyes gave me away
And I’d hold onto the urgency
Of what my heart wanted to say

I loved you, I loved you
I almost said “I do”
I loved you
How you dumped me was so cruel
Back then I loved you. Back then I loved you.

It took a lot of bravery
To say you meant so much to me
In hindsight I saw the caution signs
Maybe I should’ve let you know
I’d have a hard ass time lettin’ you go
That you’d stay my heart for such a damn long time

Your smile spoke with poetry
And my eyes drank you like wine
But you played me like a melody
As you could never be just mine

I loved you, I loved you
I almost said “I do”
I loved you
The way things ended wasn’t cool
I really loved you. I now no longer love you.

All those nights of bliss and ecstacy
I let those memories fade away
back then you truly meant so much to me
so to close sing today…

I loved you, I loved you
And I’m so glad we’re through.

Alexandra Mayers LIVE MUSIC – “Lately” live version rewrite, brainstorming & tinkering

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Tonight just testing the audio quality again for my live music webcasts while rewriting, brainstorming about & tinkering with my single pop single “Lately” from the Christian Pornstar volume 01 album.

The song initially was written specifically as a studio performance in which the verses were heavily overlapped in the mixdown process, so I’m reformatting the song for live performances.

If you’re curious to hear the initial version of the song visit www.soundcloud.com/ChristianPornstar

North Miami Accountability

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It’s time to take accountability.
Look at all that you’ve done,
You won’t get far if you run.

Time to take some damn responsibility.
Boy,
The game is over and I won.

I heard you’re down in North Miami.
Word is you’re running out of money.
Boy, It’s time to take accountability.
Don’t try to run…
Just face the fact that you failed.

Your life is DONE.

Your life is DONE.

Your life is DONE.

But BITCH your life is DONE.

Lately (piano only rough edition – final) – Christian Pornstar (volume 1)

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Lately – piano only rough edition – final (well… at least final for now)

Enjoy this piano only rough edition of “Lately” – an original song by Alexandra Mayers and the 1st single from the music album Christian Pornstar vol. 1 (produced independently by Alexandra Mayers)

The complete pop version of this song can be found on http://www.soundcloud.com/ChristianPornstar

Look for more music, art & thoughts from the Christian Pornstar spiritual movement on www.ChristianPornstar.com (website set to re-launch in June of 2017).

This song has been registered with the copyright office of the United States of America.

New music release from Alexandra Mayers – “Lately”

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“Lately” from the upcoming album Christian Pornstar – volume 01

This song was produced, written, performed and arranged by Alexandra Mayers.

A special thanks to Barry Nelson aka NYCfunk for his years of encouragement.

This song is dedicated to Sean Matthew Tompkins aka TRPWL for being exactly who he is.

“Lately”

Yearning, burning, time is turning,
Aging, raging, shaming, blaming,
Fearing – really complicating
Needlessly…but finally
The smoke is clearning
Light’s vibrating
Sounds I’m hearing
So amazing
Flying higher
Soul’s on fire
Phoenix rising
Lightning striking

My darkest fears have disappeared
I once was there, but now I’m here
It all makes sense
No coincidence
Past has wrapped round
To the future – now
While I view each moment
And event
Outside of time
Present’s divine
Feeling my blinding inner light
Ignite the earthly desert’s midnight sky

Lately my thinking has been shifting
Lately i’ve felt myself ascending

Waking phasing existence is changing
Expanding – my awareness is dancing
Ideals materialize and sing
While faceless wizards meddle behind the scenes
Goddess, angel, alien or muse
A word’s definition’s just a view
All that matters in the end
Is the meaning behind the message sent.

My darkest fears have disappeared
I once was there, but now I’m here
It all makes sense
No coincidence
Past has wrapped round
To the future – now
While I view each moment
And event
Outside of time
Present’s divine
Feeling my blinding inner light
Ignite the earthly desert’s midnight sky

Lately my feelings have been shifting
Lately I’ve felt myself ascending
I’m looking down at you
But don’t you dare think I’m vain
I’ve just risen to a brighter and a lighter and a higher plane
Somewhere beyond where life here came

Understanding why we’re here not hard
For direction, pray to thou which made the stars

Each light in the sky’s
made of the same
Dust as you and I

Each light in the sky’s
made of the same
Dust as you and I

Lately my knowing has been shifting
Lately I’ve felt myself ascending
I’m looking down at you
But don’t you dare think I’m strange
I’ve just risen to a brighter and a lighter and a higher plane
Somewhere beyond where life here came

Lately my being has been shifting
Lately I’ve felt myself ascending
I’m looking down at you
But don’t you dare think I’m insane
I’ve just risen to a brighter and a lighter and a higher plane
Somewhere beyond where life here came

Lately my thinking has been shifting
Lately I’ve felt myself ascending
I’m looking down at you
But don’t you dare think I’m vain
I’ve just risen to a brighter and a lighter and a higher plane
Somewhere beyond where life here came